I play nice here
I seem happy—smiley enough
But what I really want to do is………………………………………………………………………….. run away
and skip across an open field or frolic on a white sandy beach, taking photographs all day and night
why am I here still here, why can’t I walk away?????
why…do I suddenly feel so damn stuck??
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ReplyDeletewell, I can say that I really really relate. I think the {potentially} cool thing is- right after you realize you're stuck, change seems to come.... Sounds to me like you to: move to a new house (but maybe in an area that you both can commute; move home, but not TOO close; make plans to go home in the next 2-3 months for a visit- get your fix. Maybe you and D really need to sit down and priorotize. I know you said he loved his job, but does he think he could be {almost} as happy somewhere else? I know I feel like parts of me are just withering away- and it's not worth it... IF you could both move, even though he loves his job, AND both be happy- that's pretty damn cool. xoxox
ReplyDeleteLuz, I feel for you! I don't know whether to recommend a life-change or a vacation to somewhere sunny for a few days. Stuck sucks.
ReplyDeleteI think you are feeling that way because you are used to moving alot and this is probably the longest you have stayed in one place since you have been out of the military. I know Its hard for me to stay in one place too long also. I need that change, make it feel new. I know you guys were talking about buying a house, maybe this is the time for that change. find a place you feel good about. maybe you could join a meetup.com group that will get you motivated and re-charged. ie..photography group. just some thoughts.
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